Mlle mignonne’s Weblog

its quiet in the office, for now. god only knows that once its 11:30 + that this place will be a whirlwind of excited and overworked ta’s who are so happy that its finally the weekend but will stay in this office for no reason at all. i haven’t written for a while and i don’t know why. oh yes i do…i have absolutely no time. my days are filled with laptop typings, french lesson teaching, and plainly just screwing around in the name of education and privilege. and i like it. more and more i’m realizing that this is the place where i’m supposed to be. i am extremely happy with my surroundings. i feel that i am stimulated all the time with people who are very similar to me…and i love it.

the boy and i had a long heartfelt conversation last night. as always: one of us is happy and the other is sad. there is a never a happy medium. its funny because the dynamics of our relationship have changed. when i was at bloom, he was always my priority. he still is…but my life was surrounded by him and i chose for it to be that way. but now, our lives are surrounded by me and what i want. its very odd. i need to see him and love him as often as possible. but at the same time, i’m ok if we see  each other every other weekend. whereas, at bloom, i thought i would fall apart without my weekly fri-sun love session. i didn’t know what to do with myself. now, its completely opposite…now i don’t have enough time to spend time with everyone. there’s no doubt that we love each other. i know that he is the one for me. i guess that i’m just comforted with the knowledge that sooner than later he will be in morgantown with me. so if we don’t see each other all the time, its really no biggie because our time is just around the corner!!!!

i really do love him. and lately, i find myself in a romantic mood with edith piaf and billie holiday in my head singing songs of classic love and desire. i think its tristan and isolde’s fault, the middle age novel we just finished reading in meding’s class. real love. which is what jon and i have.