when one is stressed with lots of things in their life, they deal with their stress in different ways. some people exercise (which i should do today), some people eat (which i did out of need to relinquish dizzy spells), and some don’t eat (which i really wish i didn’t eat those greasy chicken tenders and crap salad).
so its almost the end of another week as a grad. student. besides pseudo mini breakdowns, it was good i guess. sometimes i feel like i’m sinking under my workload. i abandon my hobbies and pleasures to “catch up” the best i can, no not even catch up, but just to do my work. but i still feel like i’m always behind. that my lack of being on top of things all the time is just going to piss someone off. grad. school is great BUT, it can be a lose lose situation.
this weekend i’m racing for wvu again. i think we’re going all the way to south carolina. you would think that i would be dreading the 7 hr/ 14 hr round trip drive…but i’m not. i’ve never ridden before in south carolina and the chance of mtb variation seems exciting. my mind wonders with what the trail might look like. this weekend i think will be good for my mental equilibrium. i need a break from french stuff. its stressing me out now and i need something else to focus on besides my always present self doubt of french skills and quickly acquiring workload.
